On April 28, 2023 the president signed a proclamation on Law Day stating in the first paragraph that based upon our Founding Fathers, America would not be a land of kings but a NATION OF LAWS.

How useful is a law if it isn’t enforced? Do we have a two tier Justice System ? Is treatment fair, and what is fair?

You know who follow the laws? Law abiding citizens.

You know who doesn’t ? Criminals.

So what is the name for those who do not enforce them ? Aside from speed traps, sting operations and accidentally being in the right place while a crime is in process law enforcement respond after the fact. Don’t get me wrong, I do not want the Minority Report. We as a society have been told that justice is blind and everything has rules and procedures with checks and balances to ensure fairness. We ignorantly believe this until we don’t.

We have mobs stealing stores blind and they aren’t stopped or procesecuted. I know you will say, “but that doesn’t happen here”. So what does happen here? A group of people decide what gets investigated and how. And what can you do if you disagree? In a business you file a complaint, boycott, speak to the manager, submit to better business bureau, or pass a law. If it is anything associated with a public servant — there is no recourse unless your situation is one of the currently emotional areas that fit the media’s narrative.

But if it is an elected official you can fix it through the next election. JOKE Look at how much time you may have to wait and then, refer to section above, everyone that hasn’t experienced what you have thinks everything is great so don’t rock the boat.

I believe that I am only one of many that have lost faith (in other words , not ignorantly bliss) in our public servants and systems as a whole. These systems are the people we have to interact with. People can serve their own motives and not those whom they are supposed to serve.

The thing that comes over and over is that if you had been missing this long, the system would declare you deceased. I know how bad that sounds, but we are honest on this post if nothing else.

I have also learned a lot over these years. Who real friends are. Who are acquaintances at best. Those that only care with words. I have also learned a lot about myself.

First, others opinions mean nothing. My faith has grown in ways I never knew possible. My confidence of my relationship with my Lord is without question as is my relationship with my son. Through these long years the Lord did not abandon me nor I him, but He kept his hand on me to keep me from doing what I wanted but knew was wrong. He has shown me angels and demons through this process and opened my eyes. Many people speak of things they don’t know which is bad enough, but what is worse is those that believe them while others refuse to hear the truth.

Here lies a key to faith. Believe whole heartedly and then stand on those beliefs and don’t be swayed. Search so that you know because most counsel you get is not Godly.

I am at peace with my relationship with the Lord and with my son. I am also convinced that if you put your faith in our “systems” you are destined to loose.

7 Year update- no new news. I know you can’t believe that nothing has changed but here we are. Decided a suicide before anyone got on scene, ruled as such, cause of death being changed, case still open. All the things shared with you all already. The update – We have nothing but time and will continue.

I have come to understand in a very personal way that vengeance is the Lord’s but justice is our problem. This understanding came after the Lord delivered me through the dark abyss. If our elective officials and those that are in public service fail – we are expected to call them out.

One day I believe I will find someone who will help me change the laws to the take the power away from those who have failed to live up to their responsibilities. Our justice system has issues and until we discuss these deficiencies honestly and openly and hold people accountable we will continue to have the hate mongers set group against group and never fix the real problems.

I understand we all have a lot to deal with and people don’t have the time or energy to fight my battles just as I hope others understand I can’t fight all battles either, but maybe we can align with others who have experienced the same wrongs or have a heart for the root issue. If we don’t start fixing these root issues and stop being distracted by the rhetoric things will only continue to deteriorate.

I needed to know the truth of what happened to Alec. Laws and procedures are supposed to help preserve and document what happened with evidence. This was an insult to Alec – the quality of handling of his death and the effort spent not addressing those deficiencies. This opened my eyes to how things really work or should I say are but an illusion of how we think they work.

The truth exist whether it be hidden, twisted or lied about.

I ask you to hold those in authority accountable in all things. Authority is the control we allow others to have.

In loving memory of Alec Littlefield – taken too soon 10/30/15, loved and missed forever.